On July 26, 2015, during one of my weight lifting sessions in my gym that Sunday morning, I had a momentary lapse of concentration and accidently lost balance of my weights. I was carrying 20 kgs weights in each hand. It slipped for a moment, but then I regained control. I then continued to do my exercise. But later that afternoon, my wrist started to pain. The next day my doctor confirmed that I had a triangular fibrocartilage complex tear. The TFCC is located on the small finger side of the wrist that cushions and supports the small carpal bones and wrist movement. This portion receives very little blood supply and therefore takes a long time to heal. I had to wear a wrist supporter for the next few months I was told that I couldn’t lift weight for at least 4-6 months, till it was healed enough, and even after that the process would be slow.
I was devastated that I couldn’t lift weights. The year before, I was doing more weights, as I had leg cartridge issues in my past which let me do only limited cardio exercises. Now I was unable to do even weights. For me exercise was not just to remain healthy, it was an intrinsic part of who I was -it defined my mood. I also was angry on my fate, which led me to this injury. Just felt unlucky – why did it happen to me? There were so many people at the gym who I have been observing since the last 10 years, and I never see anyone get that injury before?
Lifting anything now was bit of a struggle; the pain lasted longer than I thought. It took me at least 8 months to recover enough to start lifting weights again. However even today, I still don’t have the original strength in my wrist like before. But I do manage to lift.
So the question I asked myself many times during the last few months is why it happened to me? In fact it was had become a trend. I had 3 major injuries over the last 4 years, Each time I improved my routines, I ended up injuring myself and it sets me back by few months. It was really frustrating.
Then a couple of months later something happened. A realization.
One day, I was getting late to office and was rushing around trying to get everything ready. As I was heading towards the bathroom for a quick shower, I almost slipped due to the wet floor, but quickly gathered my balance, avoided a possible fall. I was in so much of hurry that I carried on for the shower, as if nothing happened. Suddenly a moment of realization then struck, that maybe had I actually fallen, it could have been really bad.
It was marble flooring, and I could have hurt my back, shoulder, anything. It could have resulted in bed rest for god knows what time. But all that didn’t happen. In fact nothing happened. But I guess, I was never grateful for that save.
And then I realised, that many times I have been saved from such disasters, whether it was during a moment of rash driving, or slipping on the stairs, or simply just falling off the bed. The last one happened during the time I was writing this post. All those moments could have ended up in some form of injury. However if we closely observe our response during such situations, what do we generally do? We merely express a sense of relief for a couple of seconds, and are back in our regular life.
I think such moments deserve more gratitude and one needs to take some time out and reflect on what just happened and how lucky one is. And then one day when some injury does happen, you can only look back on all the other instances, when you actually got saved and not feel so terrible about it
Not that it will take away the pain, but it would certainly make you realize that things could have been worse and you were saved on those occasions. You need to realize that, the law of averages simply catch up someday.
It will help you accept the current situation and move on in life, just like you used to when you actually got saved many other times. Because life has many ups and downs, it does not want you to stop and keep pondering over what happened, but rather keep moving forward with a positive spirit and look at the positive that you can make out of life
As for me, post that realization, in my own small way, this injury did not let me affect me negatively. Yes I could not lift weights, so I focussed on other form of exercises and more on my diet which helped keep my body weight in check. Since March 2016, I began my weight routines from basic level. Even today I still have nagging pain after a session of lifting weights. However I accept this pain, as part of my life not letting it hamper my spirit. That I can never be fully fit for lifting heavy weight may be a reality, but if I realize the many times I have been saved, I can only consider myself overall lucky.
I think we tend to remember only the negatives in our life (that they should not be considered negatives is a different story altogether), we downplay the positives and more importantly the possible negatives which were avoided during the course of our lifetime. As those also are positives in much bigger way. Cause if we look at that in totality we all have been terribly lucky for sure.
If you still don’t believe me. Try to remember all various instances which could have been possible negatives and you got saved. You would surely consider yourself lucky.
Cheers to life